Can something last persistently, or maybe just a bit longer...

Every time, when it starts, I want it to last longer or even last forever, but the relationship is just....incapable of doing it

why?

Every time, it just breaks, it is like a piece of mirror, into a million of mammock, but I don't know why it needs to be broken...

Is it because of my selfishness, or the inflexibility of attitude, or other reasons? Am I too desolate, frigid and brittle? Why do I need to spoil it every time...

Could it just last a bit longer?

Sometimes I just don't want to face the reality, being a coward, a pudding heart...

Now, I am just terrifying, appall, in dread, frustrating, dispirited...

Could something just last a bit longer in my life?